Helplessly In Love

Another month had pass away. It seems time run so fast. It makes me feel that life is so hard and I cant moved on. Thinking of it.. It has been 6 years from now when I first learn to fall in love. Today I still love her, I don't know how to express this feeling. I don't know how to change my feelings... Waiting for nothing?

Friend told me that i'm stupid and crazy. I guess, I am! I can't blame them because they can feel the helplessness in me. I had fallen ''head over hills'' in love with her. I know, I must let go. I had to let the feeling go. I had to set my heart free.

Today it would be different. I had make a decision in order to moved on. I have to let go. My first priority now is my studies. Instead of dreaming for her. I focus more in discovering new things and new ideas. My focus now is to be the best musician, to study well and give my best.

Then I met a new friend, who had help me understand that reality of love and how to value friendship., with her help I learn to let go. And I know after my studies I can find the woman of my dreams. And who know's, she might be the right person God planned for me. That would be worth the wait.

As for now she still my first inspiration and the first woman of my dream.

The After 42 Years Typhoon

I have a class on that day on 7am at University of Santo Tomas. It was a rainy day. When I was about to go to our scarlet meeting the rain started to be hard.. Then I remembered the news that I heard about the upcoming typhoon Ondoy. Our president in Scarlet cancelled our meeting but it was too late. As expected, there was flood already but I still continued to go to UST Tan Yan Kee to pass some project proposal for our NSTP group, but, unfortunately, it was closed. I was a little surprised to saw our president in Scarlet still there and we'd became stranded for 2 hours to wait for the flood to become shallow but we're wrong for flood rised up to the waste level as it still rain hardly. And the disaster begun.

I decided to leave the university to be able to come on time to my work. Our president come with me and together we had a bad experienced crossing the flood. We had taken pictures on how the typhoon affected our university. Then I decided to walk with her to her apartment first in Recto. To my irritation which did not help of course, the flood was fast increasing reach already up to my breast and expectedly there was no available transportation. An hour passed too many people we're stranded and there was a blackout as one of the fuse sparks and thankfully we haven't yet passed. After several minutes later, We arrived at her apartment, stayed there for an hour to fixed my cellphone that had been wet because of the said situation, but I failed to fix it. She cook food for us. After a short rest, I decided to go ahead to catch up to my work. As i'm assured that she were already safe. I'd crossed the street with flood up to my neck and go on to reached my destination. Useless effort for the store closed early. My schedule was cancelled. After clossing the store. I walked from Caloocan to Malabon but this time I didn't expected that the flood will be that high. Even the people told me ''Malalim Yan 7ft-8ft Dyan'' as they estimated, I ignored them, I made a wrong step that made me almost drowned. God is so good, I was able to hold on to a rope and forced myself up. I thanked God for my luck. Finally I was able to crossed to a stranger that was stranded also holding on a tree. He helped me up on the tree and continued to swim. I'm very tired and my legs are freezing. I decided to stayed on the tree even it's very uncomfortable to stay. I wish the rescuer we're able to rescue us on time. The flood had became higher and higher and panic strikes me. I prayed and I realized that God is always with me and calm myself. The rain stopped. 2 hours passes no help still visible. I can't think well.. I was to cold and wet. The wild down pour as continued to breeze. I'm still alone and I was freezing. I just try to occupied myself doing something. It was already too dark and too quiet and said to myself Am I dreaming?

After an hour. I saw a light that come from the rescuer. How I wish they rescued us as soon as possible but they didn't. They just find a way how the flood will decreased. I cant blame them. I'll wait for 2 hours again before it goes down up to 51/2ft. Imagine I was on the tree from afternoon to morning.. Even I'm too tired, I still forced myself to crossed to that flood. At last I'm arrived at 4 in the morning. I was still lucky to survived and glad that nobody in my family get hurt.. I'M A SURVIVOR!!!