She was My Choice?

She was perfect. The girl of my dreams. Smart, Pretty, Talented and Inteligent. As I look into her eyes, I knew that softness and getleness are so much a part of her nature. I was mezmerized as she sung among the church choir. At that Instant, I felt in love with her.

But everything become a big dream to me. I saw her face almost everyminute. My mind send pictures of a lovely girl, so very often that I started day dreaming and forget my studies. I look at my books but it is her face I see. I sung with the choir but my voice echoed the voice of an undying love song. All of these makes me feel unhappy and frustrated. I know I have to make a decision. My grades are falling. I am listless and silent the whole day and my classmates notice a difference. At the age of sixteen(16) years, I am still young to let love control my being. ''Let Go'' that's what i did. I stop writing love songs, the poems I wrote for her, I now put under my drawer. I cannot make a decision to court her right now. I want to finish my studies first. I want to go to college. I cannot love her and study without neglecting her. I don't want to hurt her by not giving her time and effort. I have a big future. To want to help my mother. She is now sick and still unable to walk. I want to help my brother and sisters. I can work after high school and study at the same time.

Today, I know I made the right choice. We are both so young. We have to study first so we can have a bought future ahead. I know if we are both for each other, time will come that we can be together once more. God will open the way, in his time...